boring 17 May 2011 Back to Top?

feeling meaningless & lost now aday.

it seems like i have lost my aim and purpose of living.. my hope now is to find a good job after ORD and save up money and then make myself go study to get a diploma.. i stil really like thinking whether i should go study my private school.. i like off form to study and dont feel like studying already..

if i can get a good job with good pay and then enough to sustain maybe wont study.. of cos it must be a job that has a career prospect and one that has career advancement.. sigh. feeling so bored and lonely.. later i going zs's place to visit his ah gong funeral, yesterday he jio me but i didnt felt like going cos i went fishing with jf and then went northpoint walk walk then was feeling very sticky and dirty.. he also mentioned that rebecca is going yesterday, which also makes me dont feel like going..? She's doing quite well/good right now and living happy life.. unlike me.. like forever clinging onto the past..

i feel i'm such a failure in life.. unsuccessful in everything.. and dosen't have anything that's worth being praised/boast about..