Lately been having alot of issues/problems/conflicts in friendship, or rather to be specific, towards bun.

It's seems that this friendship is always on the rocks, no matter how much you try to salvage, it will still goes back to be on the rocks again. Sometimes felt like totally ignoring it and move on, but i'm not able to do it, because i treasure this friendship.

Thought that after that time drinking session party, we sorted out some stuffs, supposed to be okay. I guessed i was wrong, we are still not really okay. Surface wise might seems well, but in actual fact it's not really that well.

Went to JB for some last biking session with bun and kelvin on fri evening, it was the last ride for the bike. Saturday sold it off already. Bun said before that he wants to ride on the bike one last time before it's being sold, well, gave him his wish, but it seems to me that his mind is at somewhere else, maybe he would like to sit on the bike, but not go jb or hang out with kelvin?

Kelvin is my friend i know from riding PGM, during army before i really mix around, i always hang out with kelvin.. but after i kind of stopped riding we rarely contacted each other till friday, almost a year plus.

Well bun, if you are reading, which i dont know if you would, i really hope you can be more true to your feelings, open up, talk about it, share about it, if you keep everything to yourself, no one can help you either, you keep emphasizing about sharing feelings, thoughts, but what about you, are you doing it?

Even if i am no longer your bff, i'm still your friend. As a friend, you can still share things with me, if you want to. But it seems to me that you didnt share with me your stuffs as well, i can see that you're stressed up with school, bored with work, moody due to your TP, but well, we can still hang out, talk things out to feel better.

Anyway, just hope you will be fine and sort out your thoughts well.

2) School

Accounting is making me dizzy, damn alot things to do. I'm basically okay with the practical part, but theory wise having issue. I'm weak in alot of theory stuffs. Currently revising my accounting theory, as in the terms, and stuffs.. Even for my POM, i did quite badly for my POM, especially on the short question, easily i lost 20 marks, paper is 40marks. Luckily this paper consist of 20% of the whole course. Still not that jialat yet, but i need to catch up on my assignment and exam to get my distinction mark.

Yet to know my previous two modules results yet, they are not out yet, but heard some of the classmate they mention that it's around 11june it will be out, hope i gotten a D for both, not expecting a HD..

This 2 modules made me more busy, i almost everyday doing POM/BA homework, revising, catching up. POM lessons especially, making me real sleepy and shut off during school.

3) Work

I found myself a super ultra flexible part time job @ esplanade as usher.

It's very flexible and the working hours are very short, disadvantage is i need to complete the 48hrs of work before i can get pay, which is on average, 1show per month. Anyway david help me ask wenting about working back SH again, part time. 4days/week. but it's around 4-5hrs per day, and consist of 1weekend. Still not so bad.

If weekday: 7pm - 11pm

Weekend: 8.30 - 12.30pm

still can consider working, as SH pay is higher and i more used to the work already, still waiting for an confirmation.

I really need to have that income, since my weekend morning i will be sleeping most of the time, i rather suffer abit and go work and get the income than waste it on my sleep. Was glad that jess ask me to help her with one of the event as well, it earned me $70. Good enough for me, cos to me now, every cent counts.

4) R/S

Thankful for jess, being understanding towards me, i feel i'm not good enough for you sometimes, because you are always treating me better than how i treat you. But thanks for the support and help for me all this while, without you i also dont know how to like survive alot things.

5) Conclusion

Busy, lost.

Poor, aimless.

Actually i'm still tempted to get bike, especially after i get to see ducati bikes, their technology still amazed me, damn nice bike! Price also a factor, saw one of the street fighter bike diavel, it cost around 45k machine.. i guess OTR price will range around 47-48k inclusive of reloan interest, insurance, etc..

Guess it would be something i would want to aim to own one day, as a biker. Ducati is the ferrari of bikes, the very high end kind. Lol.

To everyone around me,

thanks for reading. God blessed.